The past 3 weeks of my life have been the most depressing, annoying, touching and over all fucked up. But mostly depressing.
Before I go on, if for some reason someone does read this, I guess I should explain my work situation. I am a contractual programmer for a company, which I will call the office, and I've been deployed at a company. I've been with both of them for almost 7 years.
Before I go on, if for some reason someone does read this, I guess I should explain my work situation. I am a contractual programmer for a company, which I will call the office, and I've been deployed at a company. I've been with both of them for almost 7 years.
There
was actually a precursory event that happened September of last year.
My office's 2 representatives spoke to me about becoming a regular. To
which I said yes, I was willing. I should have known that meeting was
crap when one of them refused to look at me, refused to even talk to me
normally.
Then came April 12.
The office was having a get together on the 13th. I usually don't go, but for some reason I wanted to this time, even for an hour or so.
On the 11th, I got an email from our HR requesting a meeting for the next day. Now I don't usually check that office's email at home, I barely open it at work, but for some reason, it was one of the pages that opened when I opened my browser. It should have been my other gmail account, not that one. And that's when I found out about the meeting, and of course I accepted.
I had a feeling that it was related to the previous meeting. Hoping that it was going to be a work offer, but kinda expecting it also to be the worst of the worst.... That I was being removed. Before I left work, I was even joking around with my friends that I'd text them 'good bye', and that maybe I should be writing my farewell email.
What happened was the worst.
When I got to the meeting place, I was looking for one of the people I spoke to at the last meeting. I saw both of them. The decent one, spoke to me for a while, then left me alone. The other one still refused to look at me. That already gave me a bad feeling in my gut.
And now for the meeting.... I was given 2 choices. For my contract to be ended or for me to be made redundant. Some choices no? I was given until the end of May to look for a new office.
I was amicable for some reason, probably the shock. The HR person then left me to get the other person who spoke to me before, to say goodbye I guess. We cried a bit then I went home and went to bed.... at 4 pm.
While I was at that office I had to take care of something else, so while I was waiting, I texted one person goodbye. I received reactions from 3. 2 people texted me back, and 1 called. I answered the texts, couldn't really talk coz I was still at the office.
Now about 9 years ago, the same thing happened to my old work place. We were made redundant after we were promised that our jobs were safe. But I did understand why we were removed. I was depressed for about a month, but was still kinda okay because I was made into a consultant for a year and we were given a big separation package.
Back to the present. The reason I was removed was stupid, and obviously not the real reason for it. But I didn't care anymore. I was 'fine... you don't want me'
Saturday after, I was in bed feeling meh... The one I texted called me. It was amusing to see that they were so pissed off. I just cried while she was freaking out.
The days after that, I got offers of help to find a new job, people saying that I wasn't going anywhere and basically showing support. I was really touched.
Now I know that some of that concern for me was actually part worry on their part that they could also be removed just like that, but it was amusing and touching.
The next few days the company wanted my replacement to also be a senior programmer. I've been a programmer for almost 13 years now... (yes I'm old, so shut up :p)
There has been no indication of my replacement arriving anytime soon.
The one that talked to me at the office said that they might be extending my contract til the end of the year, but my friend's conversations with the other person showed that she really wanted me out and that I already had a replacement, invisible apparently.
When the company got wind of it, they offered to find me another office to transfer to, and they'd still get me to work for them. Effectively cutting the other office's contract with the company. The office's answer to my replacement was still fucked up so I didn't know what I was going to answer. The company told me the office had until Monday to fix things, if not I was going to be transfered. And now the office found out about that, and it apparently didn't sit well with them because I got a call from HR again last Friday, and now I am going to be made regular. To be finalized on Monday morning. I guess I can still shift offices if I don't like what they have to say.
So all in all, I guess it all worked out, but in my heart of hearts I know that they want me out. I'm keeping my options open and leaving when I can.
I don't know how I'm going to react when I see the "other" person at the office. Probably pretend I don't see them....
OKAY! So now that's over for now. I will post this on my other blogs.
I tried writing this on wordpress first, but for some reason it lagged. Whenever I typed something out, it'd take a least 10 seconds before it actually came out on screen. And I didn't like the spacing for Blogger, I guess I must tweak it somewhere...
Oh.... no one outside of work knows everything that happened these past few weeks. Now that it has some sort of an end, I can finally tell some people without crying... I hope.
The office was having a get together on the 13th. I usually don't go, but for some reason I wanted to this time, even for an hour or so.
On the 11th, I got an email from our HR requesting a meeting for the next day. Now I don't usually check that office's email at home, I barely open it at work, but for some reason, it was one of the pages that opened when I opened my browser. It should have been my other gmail account, not that one. And that's when I found out about the meeting, and of course I accepted.
I had a feeling that it was related to the previous meeting. Hoping that it was going to be a work offer, but kinda expecting it also to be the worst of the worst.... That I was being removed. Before I left work, I was even joking around with my friends that I'd text them 'good bye', and that maybe I should be writing my farewell email.
What happened was the worst.
When I got to the meeting place, I was looking for one of the people I spoke to at the last meeting. I saw both of them. The decent one, spoke to me for a while, then left me alone. The other one still refused to look at me. That already gave me a bad feeling in my gut.
And now for the meeting.... I was given 2 choices. For my contract to be ended or for me to be made redundant. Some choices no? I was given until the end of May to look for a new office.
I was amicable for some reason, probably the shock. The HR person then left me to get the other person who spoke to me before, to say goodbye I guess. We cried a bit then I went home and went to bed.... at 4 pm.
While I was at that office I had to take care of something else, so while I was waiting, I texted one person goodbye. I received reactions from 3. 2 people texted me back, and 1 called. I answered the texts, couldn't really talk coz I was still at the office.
Now about 9 years ago, the same thing happened to my old work place. We were made redundant after we were promised that our jobs were safe. But I did understand why we were removed. I was depressed for about a month, but was still kinda okay because I was made into a consultant for a year and we were given a big separation package.
Back to the present. The reason I was removed was stupid, and obviously not the real reason for it. But I didn't care anymore. I was 'fine... you don't want me'
Saturday after, I was in bed feeling meh... The one I texted called me. It was amusing to see that they were so pissed off. I just cried while she was freaking out.
The days after that, I got offers of help to find a new job, people saying that I wasn't going anywhere and basically showing support. I was really touched.
Now I know that some of that concern for me was actually part worry on their part that they could also be removed just like that, but it was amusing and touching.
The next few days the company wanted my replacement to also be a senior programmer. I've been a programmer for almost 13 years now... (yes I'm old, so shut up :p)
There has been no indication of my replacement arriving anytime soon.
The one that talked to me at the office said that they might be extending my contract til the end of the year, but my friend's conversations with the other person showed that she really wanted me out and that I already had a replacement, invisible apparently.
When the company got wind of it, they offered to find me another office to transfer to, and they'd still get me to work for them. Effectively cutting the other office's contract with the company. The office's answer to my replacement was still fucked up so I didn't know what I was going to answer. The company told me the office had until Monday to fix things, if not I was going to be transfered. And now the office found out about that, and it apparently didn't sit well with them because I got a call from HR again last Friday, and now I am going to be made regular. To be finalized on Monday morning. I guess I can still shift offices if I don't like what they have to say.
So all in all, I guess it all worked out, but in my heart of hearts I know that they want me out. I'm keeping my options open and leaving when I can.
I don't know how I'm going to react when I see the "other" person at the office. Probably pretend I don't see them....
OKAY! So now that's over for now. I will post this on my other blogs.
I tried writing this on wordpress first, but for some reason it lagged. Whenever I typed something out, it'd take a least 10 seconds before it actually came out on screen. And I didn't like the spacing for Blogger, I guess I must tweak it somewhere...
Oh.... no one outside of work knows everything that happened these past few weeks. Now that it has some sort of an end, I can finally tell some people without crying... I hope.
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